Lonely dawns..lonesome afternoons..vacuum evenings & solitary nights....too much..just too much of MYSELF in my life...
But aint I enjoyin it..aint i having a rockin time??? Huh...yeah thats what i guess wud make me feel better :) It already is...thinking of what all I have discovered about myself....
I never knew I enjoy watching the ants go up the wall in a single file....and that I have an innate ability to know which direction the butterfly would swerve next...the red flower on the left, or the yellow one on the right corner..hey..am already beginning to think like a butterfly :) flutter flutter
I treat myself to some soulful Jagjit melodies these days...every lafz of them a realisation about life, every note of the accompanying music takes me further a step into salvation. Thank you, ME!!
Never had had i watched so many pretty chicks in a day, and let myself smile at each of them, for some to respond and some more to wave me off as some flirtatious tourist..whatever...I love myself for doing that...
With none else for company..with none else to talk to...I mutter to myself, and I also answer back. Some might call this madness...but dude..wat the heck...I talk well man...I also solve most of my problems...and hey..once in a while..I treat myslef to momos n coffee...beside teh corner window with a view..and hey..capuccino wid French Fries rock man..I made myself discover :)
I feel to have come straught out of "The English August" by Chatterjee..I never knew how it wud feel..but now I do..its not as bad as it seemed...its great rather....to know I had this capacity to survive in wilderness..to withstand utter loneliness..and still be happy...about having myself for company
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